Dear Mr. God

I know this sounds like an unusual title but really it isn't. This is the name of a song on the Letters to God soundtrack. It sums up how I feel at times. Sometimes it feels as if you do forget how to pray. In your heart you know that God is listening but you just don't understand sometimes. It is like right now. Our appointment last week went pretty bad. John's kidneys are damaged. It doesn't matter what we do it will damage something else. That is the hardest thing with John's disorder. Due to the fact so many systems being affected we are low in options. We just have to keep hoping and praying. We have another appointment this week. We shall see.